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Sunday, November 28, 2004
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44 more weeks
::jufFeNder | | 11/28/2004 10:02:00 PM |
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11 more months... then finish!!! tt's like 44 more weeks? with an average of 4 events perweek.... tt would be... errmmm 44 x 4 = 176...... whoa... tt's still like a lot? 176 more event to go.... more or less... hmmm so i'll write around 176 more articles... and then i can move on.... sounds like a lot? ok lah... 44 more weeks doesn't sound so bad...
anyway... i gotta polish my shoes... and make sure everything is neat and tidy for tomorrow.... i've got events from morning... all the way till night.... nice huh? a day in the life of peter parker...
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jean danker
::jufFeNder | | 11/28/2004 10:51:00 AM |
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i did say once i took a photo of jean... so here she is... this was at the Road Safety Campaign launch.
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
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headliner : the sky's the limit (cliche)
::jufFeNder | | 11/23/2004 11:48:00 PM |
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i just came back.... tired? yes please... but it was worth it i guess... cos i learnt a lot of things and i managed to get some good shots today... managed to capture edmund chen and vernetta lopez... yes V Lo... and she looks kinda pretty for her age... but still she's nice and crazy and all... and i shaked edmund chen's hand and acted professionally. haah... coolness in the jufferness kingdom i say... but the one thing abt this event that i covered was i had fun taking photos... i followed this dude who is one hell of a professional photographer. he'll say...'ok one shot....' then POW!! 3 flashes followed suit and he's damn quick... one moment he's at one side of the room and at the next moment... he's on the other side... power.... so i took some tios on angles from him and yeah some pretty good shots came flowing.... nice...
so yeah work had been great and though i have 2 of articles to clear wic amounts to an 8 page total, still i think it's cool. but hell i gotta rush a few stuffs out cos i'm running late for the magazine to be published.... sad man... but maybe we're just too shorthanded.... still tt's for the higher management to decide. so yeah rock while i can and maybe it'll turn out the way i imagined it would be....
been a while since i indulged myself in my sketch book and just take an empty bus ride touring my own world... i'm missing that... i miss the times where i could draw out watever i want and thought abt the things that i like and convey it all on paper art... now i can't seem to find the time can i? time management they say.... hmmm but i'm not balancing it well enuff i guess...
and yah.... my dad complained abt you know.... his lower back hurts and other parts of his body hurts.... and my mum was like... 'go to the doctor.... u complain to me also wat can i do... just go to the doctor... he can help...' and my dad was like...'no no no need....' i mean if u're sick, just go to the doc? but maybe i can sort of figure out why he doesn't wanna go... cos confirm if he goes, he'll get hospitalised and worst come to worst.... he'll get blasted by the docs for not watching his diet and defied everything else the doc had told him not to do. well it seems that i don't care... but sometimes... i dun have a choice... how do i help when you don't even want to help urself... god helps those who help themselves.... so take the first move dad.... and i think i did my part to warn my friends.... i've already wrote a 2 page article on the facts of smoking and tips to quit... it's on Police Life Magazine for all u guys out there who wanna quit... yes i care abt u guys... so yes please do quit... and i even remember the quitline for u guys... 1800 438 2000... it's also written on all your cigarette packs if u haven noticed.... so if u ask me why i wanna share this, i'd say... i care....
Monday, November 22, 2004
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work...dinner....home
::jufFeNder | | 11/22/2004 11:03:00 PM |
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ok... so after clearing most of my articles... i'm only left with 2 more to go... is it? one for the bumper issue... and the other for a 4 page cover story... wait... the other story also 4 pages.... hmmm.... anyway, i'll be attending a Gala dinner tml as well... so tt's cool...
so, i worked the whole day.... had a 30 minute lunch... then back to work again... after that... had dinner with melvin, queenie and timothy at serangoon. and tt place only one malay store... $2 mee rebus for me pls... shanks. but yeah... we had a chat... shared some jokes... and at the end of it all... it was a good meal filled with laughter. so took the bus with melvin all the way back to yishun. and yeah reminiscing abt NS training days is so much fun... it's the same as talking abt my trip to australia just to play music! u can blabber non stop abt it and at the end of the day have a good laugh thinking abt how much u just blabbered abt....
enough with that... i'm having the cough... so i think i'll crash out and relax for tomorrow....
"i wanted you to know, i love the way you laugh... i wanna hold you high and steal your pain away..." - seether
Sunday, November 21, 2004
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whiner and quitter no more
::jufFeNder | | 11/21/2004 11:59:00 PM |
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i guess 2004 is a negative year for me... but i dun even know if i'm looking at the bright side of it... most if the times... i'm just negative. and the weird thing is... i just realised tt.... so stop whining jufF!!
so the good thing abt today... i got to go by the sea... and enjoy the sea breeze while smelling the barbeque of teriyaki chicken.... yummy... but i was there on official business though.... peter parker on the job again.... and i can practically picture myself as in Spiderman 2 the movie... when pete's boss would say..."peter! wake up!!! snap the picture!!".... though my in-charge did not say that, i practically went on a shooting spree... kept snapping at any opportunity there is... but they're delegates and so i did not cross tt line of goin all the way to blind them with my flash... but positively.... who ever gets to experience watever i'm experiencing during NS? i get to meet really important ministers... the president.... the commissioner of police, SCDF.... and other big guys... and i work with them too.... so yeah... i think it's a blast when i could see pple who just met these guys for the few times in their lives and they'd go... ooooo aaahhhh.... while i think i've been taking too much of their pictures... hahahaahaha....
anyway... i'm the low profiled photographer.... and i try to write things that are as honest as possible.... but come to think of it... i kinda like my job and i can't see myself in many of the vocations available. though i thought beeing a trooper would be cool. oh well... someday i'll make it big for myself.... i'll work hard and maybe someday i'll be someone important as well....
Saturday, November 20, 2004
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here and there
::jufFeNder | | 11/20/2004 11:26:00 PM |
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i forgot to tell u guys bout my visit to the school for the deaf.... it was friggin cool! you have no idea how cool sign language is... it's pretty amazing being stuck in a world where communication was so action based. at first when i stepped into the school, it was more of a quiet place as expected... but the kids were like any other... but they're special in their very own way....
this kid in particular... i'll get his photos uploaded when i get back to office on monday. his name is salihudin if i'm not wrong... and he was stuck to me like my own brother and he's so cute!!! bu the bummer point is i find it hard to communicate with him but kenji, my half japanese half melayu colleague was there to offer assistance. so tt's cool.... but yeah these kids.... they're just great and just hanging ard them for that day made everything else special in their own way... so yah... shanks for the time kids... it's been great... one day i'll pick up sign language... then we'll rock!!!
oh yah... during tt visit... one song was stuck on my head thruout.... and i dunno why.... but everytime i mention rock... this song comes to mind.... so do click on the link below to listen ya.... yeah i do agree that his voice needs some tuning.... but the music's great.... my friend Ming Pop's band 59 minutes with their song.... knowing you.... the first few lines are just so... old skool.... yeah... rock!
59 minutes - knowing you
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i'm the cabby
::jufFeNder | | 11/20/2004 11:58:00 AM |
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i walked out of the office at 9.45 yesterday. yes it was at night. was trying to finish up watever they left on my table during my absence. man was it a lot? yes... and some of it has deadlines on monday as well. to make things more happening as it already was, i was roped in for a rehearsal at SPOM yesterday while i was in the midst of typing out my articles. came back to office at 7+ then typed a little bit more till 9.45 when i realised that the office was close to being empty.
went to my bike... and that goddamn piece of 'i'm sure gonna sell u away soon' machine died on me. totally died on me and gave me that burnt aroma... nice right? geee.... with like 3 bags on me... my normal backpack, my camera bag and my helmet bag... i made my way agonisingly to the bottom of the hill to flag for a cab. and this cab driver was getting on my nerves in a very polite way... i dunno why but i seem agitated by his politeness. not that i dun appreciate pple being polite or something but he goes something like this....
"gd evening sir... where can i fetch u to today?" then i was like... wow so polite... first time.... nice....
so i told him.."yishun ave 6 please..."
"so by which way do you want to go sir?" then i was like... oh ok....
"any route is fine... as long as there's no jam?" i laughed...
"yes, but i'm the driver and it's only right that you tell me by which way to go so that you can be satisfied with the route you've chosen...." he said...
so i thought... "errrmmm how abt we go via upper thomson, then straight down to sembawang road first..."
"so will you prefer the CTE or non CTE sir?" then i was like... i thought i just told him where to go... and that route has no CTE.... still i remained polite.... since he was polite first...
"that will be the non CTE route please..." so after 3 minutes of telling him where to go... we finally rolled out.
then while he was driving he told me... "sir, so we will exit by the thomson route can?"
"yes please.... you're so correct.." i answered wondering why did he ask me the route to drive on in the first place when he was about to ask along the way again....
so the Gold 90 FM was playing all the oldies and several super old skool songs kinda distracted me away from my polite friend....
then he broke the silence by saying.... "so, go straight all the way to sembawang road?"
"yes please..." i answered...
"sir, you have to tell me where to turn so that i can chauffer you the way you want to be chauffered...."
i was thinking... hmmm... you're the cabby? ok... fine.... so maybe some cabbies are blur but polite and somehow you're one of em.... so i just showed him the way... all the way.... it's the same as i'm directing myself imagining i was a driving instructor...."keep right... after junction turn right..... before junction on slip road turn left..... slow down as there's a junction up front...."
surprisingly upon reaching my destination, he did not find himself knocked out by my helmet. so i was cool.... and tired.... so once he said... thank you... usually... when pple say thank you to me... i usually say... no, thank you instead and smiled... but this time... i replied.... you're welcome.... as though i was the cab driver driving me home.
went home.... bathed and everything... and crashed while the tv was on... and my mum was taling to me most of the time when the tv was on.... but i didn't think she noticed that i actually slept while she was talking... sorry ya.... tired ah...
Thursday, November 18, 2004
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dishwalla -- angels or devils
::jufFeNder | | 11/18/2004 11:34:00 PM |
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this is the last time
that i'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time i will fall
into a place that fails us all the time
well i can see the pain in you
and i can see the love in you
if fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
the angels the burn inside for us
and are we ever ....
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around...
i'm always gonna worry bout
the things that could make us cold
this is the last time
that i'm gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here
i just wanna know what blurs and what is clear to see
well i can see the pain in you
and i can see the love in you
if fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
the angels the burn inside for us
and are we ever ....
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around...
i'm always gonna worry bout
the things that could break us
if i were to give in
i'd give it up and then
take a breath and make it deep
cos it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us... cold
i'm always gonna worry about
the things that could make us cold...
this song... it just means a million things on my mind.... but still... the message is conveyed... i miss her already...
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finally...
::jufFeNder | | 11/18/2004 12:05:00 AM |
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after spending errrmmm countless hours for today on this blog i finally finished the layout and all. it's just me experimenting on some stuffs... learning new things. chasing away the complete idiot in me on html. anyway... i'm done with this... just pray that it'll take a while for me to change the whole concept again. well if some of u do know me... it's like i'm the kind where details are looked at sometimes... so sometimes yeah i use the word sometimes... if something just dun seem right... i'll tend to get a lil itchy handed and might just do something to it. ok... so there's that mural wall on the left where i could display some photos rather than have u guys go all the way to the photo link just to view some stuffs. i think tt board will be updated as and when i think there are new photos in store. so yeah u guys can look out for that.... otherwise... all i did was re-arranging boxes and did the background as well. i edited the background from yesterday actually cos i can't seem to upload it to the server. so after a few adjustments i managed to get it up... and if the top left logo looks like a flower to u, it's actually not a flower... if u look properly, it's 2 fishes. not that i'm pisces or anything... but i thought it looks cool. it's brandon boyd's tattoo anyway. so yeah it's cool. below i just placed several other phots of myself since this is my blog. it's all cut up and edited and all.... so yeah... i think i'm fine with this one..... *breathes a sigh of relief*
oh dang... look at the time now... and my holiday time is up.... time to head back to work later in the day... confirm there's loads to be done... alrighty.... shall look forward to it.....
"and my worst pains are words i cannot say.... still i will always fight on for you...."
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
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how to make a perfect impression? be late! -_-
::jufFeNder | | 11/17/2004 01:13:00 AM |
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the worst thing that you could do when you tell someone not to be late is to be late yourself... yes and i'm that bad guy today... and when i missed the bus i thought i'll still be able to chase time when i get up the next one. but the next one came 10 minutes later. so i was like shucks.... got to the MRT station, and there i go again... seeing the last cabin pass me by and then the time teller reads '7 Mins'. i was down to the slumps man. imagine being late for this? geeeeeeee..... *speechless and yes i'm dumb*
anyway, by the time i got to town, i just made my way to wisma to meet up with narz apologising my lack of discipline for time management. and she was on time for god's sake... i'm so sorry again ya... i'll make it up to u sometime... so it rained so we stopped just beside cineleisure while we caught up on some stuffs before this exemplary lady actually offered to borrow us her umbrella so that we could get across to ceneleisure for lunch. i think narz was so touched by that act of kind deed. so i brought the lady across first before adjourning back to narz and brought her over as well. that lady is so sweet! see singaporeans!!! you should be more like her!! role model man...
so we had kunch at BK, laughed at some stuffs... [eh.... my name is so and so... SUSPECT lah sikit!] those who caught tt malay show would have gotten the joke. so after lunch we headed down to the destinated place of Motorshow 2004 at Suntec. yay! all the showroom shine glimmers thru the hall... i was expecting it to be like a hotwheels roadshow as seen on tv on the show 'Rides'. but it wasn't something as high class as that. there were some pretty cool cars and we kinda went up from level 4 to 6 and repeat the cycle a couple of times cos we wanted to get the goodie bags... yeah it's just paperbags... but u know, it's like going shopping and getting all those paperbags seems kinda neat. then u could go off saying... "yeah the Lexus is good and the peugeots kinda classy but i still prefer the lotus though..." and saying all those with the different labels of paperbags in your hand looks damn convincing that you just bought 5 cars at one go. but we went round taking pictures of most cars and just admiring the beauty if engineering. soon after it was kinda almost 5.45 and she had to head home cos she's goin out after that.... so she cabbed down a taxi as i watched. and then after i waved gdbye, it was the slow journey home on the train and the bus....
reached home.... and danial and danish came to visit!! they missed my house yesterday so they came to hangout... those twins are like so smart... man i dunno how smart they'll be when they come to my age. sheeeessshhh scary....
oh well it's late... and the reason for the late entry is that i was working on a new layout and such... but the server just wun load my new back ground... sad man... worked for hrs and can't load... frus frus frus.... but i'll try again later in the morning or something... not working later too... gonna be back on thursday where i know the mountain load of work awaits... yeay!! [sadist tone] and yes... the visit to the school for the deaf is on friday. rushing man......
ok to all muslims.... selamat hari raya cos i haven wished u readers of my blog rite? and happy holidays and christmas is coming soon as well.... so yeah... happy holiday mood man...
Saturday, November 13, 2004
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trauma me
::jufFeNder | | 11/13/2004 11:45:00 PM |
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i did a lot of reflection during the day amidst the spring cleaning and such. everytime i got time to lay back a lil, i thought of what's been happening these past few days tt leaves my mind a bit off. so what if my past comes back? i should not let it bother me but i did... and it's not something that happens everyday too. but i said it before to myself during the period she was not in my life.... i told myself that she's happier where she is now and it'll be super weird for her to appear one day in my life. so i shall not hope for it. but the truth is, reality made its mark... and it left me stunned.... face it she's back and laying down wun help...
i read my entry titled 'a few good men' and i mentioned something about the smile... didn't i realise that what i mentioned would become a reality so soon. come to think of it.... things are so different now... but she'll still be someone to remind me of certain things in my life but she will not play a part in it anymore... cos i'm in love with someone else and she's in love with someone else... so that's a perfect line drawn... she can be a role model in her love life and i can pick up from there... cos the person that i love seems to be the downside of me.
the whitephoenix that i've been chasing has left me eluded and confused for some time now.... i'm just afraid that lightning will strike twice and i'll lose my whitephoenix the way i lost mel.... i dun want that to happen. persevere u say and give her time? i am persevering and i'm keeping to my side of my line in giving her as much time as i could to settle into her life and sort out what she wants... but will time play its trump card on me again? take whitephoenix away? and one day i'll have to live with seeing the love of my life with someone else.... i'm seeing that now aren't i? the once love of my life... with someone else... but i'm giving my heart to whitephoenix... if she's ever reading this... i just want to tell her that i love her and i'm giving my all to make this happen between us. but i know it's just me clapping and hearing my own echo now... that's always been the case right? i dunno... what lydia told me in my testimonial is true too... i'm not cut out to be in this love thing... that's why i'm so confused most of the time...
i'm just someone looking for the other side of me.... if i thought i've found her then i'm crossing a deep river with loch ness waiting to eat me up just to get to her... once again it's just me...
and the song In Loving Memory by Alter Bridge had been ringing in my head all day long... guess tt song goes out to both Mel and whitephoenix...
Friday, November 12, 2004
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the real angel from my nightmare
::jufFeNder | | 11/12/2004 10:31:00 PM |
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she came back....
u know, i've not seen this someone for 5 long years... i was picking up my life from the day she stepped out of my life back when i was in secondary 3 til today.... so it seems like i was never gonna see that someone who changed my entire course of life. she was the person who reminded me to give my all in a relationship if i do not want to lose the person i love again. she was the one who taught me to treasure the person who would be there for me. she was the one who reminded me time and again that listening to your other half is the most important thing in order to understand her... and she also taught me the true meaning of the phrase "you'll only notice what you have after they're gone". and it is painstaking to even think that i'm living my life based on past experiences she taught me....
so i thought 5 years was long until today... i suddenly had the urge to log on to friendster this morning just before i went to work and i think that was the biggest mistake i did so far.... thought i'd check out the bulletin board on wat's been goin on... but i saw this friend request instead... it was by a "Moo Couple" character. i thought, damn... now what? even the dating agency wants to be my friend?? so i was like a lil curious and so i clicked on to find out who tt character is.... at first i saw a clark kent and lana's photo...so i thought... ok it's not the dating agency... but upon further viewing, i was dumped into a state of mixed emotions... i saw that smile again...that smile... it brings back all the memories of the past... it was her... the angel from my nightmare... and she found me.... and she's with somebody else too.... everything that i predicted came true... everything that i've been saying since the day she left are all true... and god i'm so cursed...
i dunno if i'm happy to see her again, or i'm confused on why the sudden appearance after all these years, traumatised, or i dunno if i'm just plain happy to see her doin well and such... i just dunno...
-leave.me.alone-
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
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and so i speak...
::jufFeNder | | 11/09/2004 09:46:00 PM |
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and so i write again. i'm on my medication so, i'm very sleepy right now... yes the itch hasn't gotten the best of me yet... hmmm... i didn't watch the final episode of the bachelorette the other day as i said i would... maybe i just didn't wanna know wat happened to matthew and meredith and ian.... cos if i know, then there'll be expectations in my life... so just leave it the way it is... it's better that way. so in case i fall again, at least i learn it the hard way.
ok, so the department is like goin to the school of the deaf on the 19th... yeah, tt's next friday i think... and as per normal, we're supposed to do something for the trip. and my team is in charge of entertainment and food. i really need help. any ideas for entertainment when we go to the school? i thought of some but it's pretty bague and doesn't make sense. but wat else makes sense? it's a challenge and yeah maybe i'll find my inspiration somewhere and make the most out of it. so yeah... 19th is cool...
and yes.... on the 3rd and the 10th are my 2 sister's b'day... really sorry if i'm packed with work but tt's just me... and sorry no presents from me this yr like as if i gave u guys something any other year?!! but as long as the wishes are there then i'm cool.
*yawnnnnn* i'm tired.... think i'll go crash now... still got event tml... chererererereeeerrrrsssss...
Saturday, November 06, 2004
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rock on!! and yeah... scratch on....
::jufFeNder | | 11/06/2004 10:28:00 PM |
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yeah i found the song playing now while i was just browsing thru the artist category on the web. love this song man... it really depicts my life before NS and just u know hang around listening to all these music... i'll rock to any band playing this song... if they're good at it actually. the song by finch is more of a state tt i'm in now... so yeah... why remorse over a sad song when u can rock with it!
and yeah i went to the doc just now.... well cos i have this irritating bunch of non visible rashes tt got me scratching all over my body like a DJ scratching his discs!!! but mine are just all over the place... and basically i emptied the whole of my wallet at the dispensary. burned $43 on medication.... damn... just hope i can sleep well tonight without dreaming i was a monkey....
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generation of CCD-ians
::jufFeNder | | 11/06/2004 01:33:00 AM |
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ok.... i have not much to type today but yeah i went out for a reunion of the old PAD guys and us the new ones... so yeah... here's wat Nisar, a super grand senior writer of mine wrote to all of us a night ago in a mail....
Hi Guys:
Okay the following has turned out longer than i expected :) So beforeyou fall asleep - you may want to forward to the PAD people who could not make it last night:
"It was good to meet up yesterday - for those who did not show thoughwe missed you sorely - all of us agree that you need to hire asecretary to organise your schedules better :) At least, we had a 70%hit rate, yay!
The night started out with an evening meeting of the old-timers,sometimes known as old birds or crudely put, 'lao chiaos'. Of course,it was only the retirees who were there early - Nisar K and J Malikaka silat exponent, photography extraordinaire or as some people putit, "there is good, there is excellent and then there is Jamal".
Jamal shared tales of his long-awaited retirement and pension, howlife suddenly becomes great and you actually have time to do what youlove. Then came along Jason Chua - the Honda industrial designer. Hehas more input on Singapore's road scene then many can imagine - he isthe one who ensures bikers enjoy riding glamourous rides, love theirbikes to the core and the reason why chicks dig bikers. You gottathank him - he must have some impact on the local increasingpopulation man. Way better than any SDU campaign.
This was followed by almost an hour-long session on the beauty of theKeris (for those not in the know, its the traditional Malay sword usedby the Hang Jebat's and Hang Tuah's of the Malay folklore. The swordwhich ranges from 1 to 9 inches, sometimes longer and is a collector'sitem. They origin from Sumatra and Java, of Bugis descent and arepractically out of production. We learnt that the swords can be abouta century old, and one that is 30 - 50 years old, is actually youngand new. Anyway, plenty more info at:http://www.st.rim.or.jp/~cycle/MYkerisE.HTML or you can join theupcoming Keris Club sometimes next year - contact J Malik for info.
After an overdose of bad pepsi and Kentucky Fried Chicken fries withmayonaise and cheese, we headed to Adam Road to meet with theKengsters - Juraimi Jumahat and Zainal Abiddin, currently on reservistwith the force. Though on office hour, they were working till superlate - to prepare for a police exhibition the next day. They broughtalong the green birds - Juffry Joihani and Effandi Mohamed.
What followed was teh ahlia, tame green tea and a whole reminiscingsession on life as a police life writer cum photographer cum designercum putting magazine into the packaging slotter. How times havechanged and how old we feel. The current Officer Cadet Trainee andSpecial Constabulary trainee batch feels like 40 batches on. Just sothat we dont feel bad, i wont mention the exact numbers.
Juraimi Jumahat, the 'Get Creative' of Creative Technologies fameshared his creative and design mis-adventures with Zainal Abiddin -the hotel maestro who has travelled the world working in the hotelindustry - from Switzerland to Adelaide to Atlanta - you name it, hehas been there. Juffry and Effandi told us tales of the white horsesin the building and new challenges - of Police Life Channel - theupcoming interactive and video channel - exciting days and times indeed.
We reminisced the days of constant overtime producing the police lifemagazine, the production of the book - tribute to our officers, therun-ins with regular officers and our beloved brothers in the office.Some things change - like the high-tech security to get into theoffice, the fancy macintosh computers, the personnel who manage themagazine (sometimes in diminishing numbers) but i guess some things donot. Like the spirit and enthusiasm, the joy of seeing the publicationin print, the battles and the National Serviceman blood, sweat andtears that go into the monthly magazine.
In unison, we agree the Police Life Writers were born or destined to'Constantly try to publish the magazine on time' and attempt to catchup and deliver the magazine within the month and not 1 - 3 monthslater :) However, what many do not realise is that though this is aservice of sorts, you are actually documenting police history andcontributing to the making of the past for future generations.
It's getting late - better to stop here before we get to nostalgic -and of course, some began receiving calls from their better half's toinquire on their whereabouts."Yes dear, on the way home now.", whereas at the other end there wereprobably threats along the veins of: "Better get home now, honey orelse your packed bags will be waitin for you near the doorstep". Ofcourse, i am kidding.Hopefully we get to catch up again soon - and the rest can join us.The tall tales above are just a taste of what you have missed :-)
With this email are photos of the Adam Road Fiasco and our contacts inexcel. Please let me know if you have others details.
cheers nisar
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
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follow up
::jufFeNder | | 11/02/2004 10:50:00 PM |
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hmm i didn't know my previous entry was harsh or it affected some readers. and so i apologise if i did something to trigger a pinch to ur hearts. anyway, it'll still be part of my entry and yeah u guys can refer to it in the archives in the future or something. well, i have nothing much to talk abt today. but i've been made the registration, pass and stage manager of the upcoming internal communications workshop gonna be held this thursday. busy busy i am.... so yeah... new tasks to grab hold of and execute... so, i'll end off with a lil bit of what i had in mind after reading something....
i'll wait.....
Monday, November 01, 2004
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a few good men...
::jufFeNder | | 11/01/2004 10:39:00 PM |
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i managed to catch the finale to the bachelorette yesterday... and i repeat, i am no reality tv fan. as i switched from channel to channel, apparently they were mentioning something like "finale of the bachelorette" or something... well i thought, hmmm she's gonna break a man's heart. hey this could be fun to watch. so i kept on watching. she, meredith, reminded me of someone i knew back in secondary school. and old flame i should say. she had the exact look in her face when she smiled. u know, tt sweet, mesmerising look she portrays and she's not afraid to express herself. tt i note as sincerity. but the 2 finalists, ian and matthew, gee i remembered their names after one episode, well they were so in love with her that they're like giving up everything for her. which i learnt in my love life is a goddamn big mistake to do. but who can blame em? they're fighting for the same girl week in and week out. and matthew i should say, i gotta respect him man. he was dejected in the end but he portrayed such a brave final showdown of his rebellion in front of meredith. and i dare say tt he did not want to cry only because he dun want meredith to feel bad. damn man, i could basically feel his heart shattering into a bazillion pieces when meredith said the word 'but'. one word, shattered his whole fantasy. i mean... look at it this way, he was madly in love with her... he's like looking for that one chance to take a step into her life and never look back at it. but ian is one guy who has the looks but he's uncertain of where he's goin. yes he knows how to enjoy life and bring out the best in atmospheres.... but will it all last in the future? matthew was on the other hand, stable and he basically dug out his heart, put it on a plate, placed a pail of nails on one hand and soft pillow on the other, and asked meredith to choose which one should he place his heart in. he's the man i should say! i guess the impact of the crash totally showed when he closed the limo's door and literally slumped and crashed out with his heart in his hand, bleeding without a care in the world... but this is life as they say.... meredith had to choose... and she chose ian... thus, matthew is the one suffering a fatal carcrash of a heart. and i pity the poor dude. so the next episode, i think u can clearly see his depressed state of mind during the trailers...
so it applies in real life... maybe tt's why they called it reality tv.... it's to teach and educate pple who are in love. she could be the one for me and the person i've been looking forward to spend the rest of my life with. but if i dun show her my heart now, how will she ever know? but if i gave her my all, and she chose to neglect it and fall for another, dear god there's nothing that i could do. i dare say i'll be like matthew, look in her eyes, wish her all the best. not to cry but to fake a smile so she wun shed a tear. say that i wish her all the best and pray for her happiness with the guy she loves... if being happy with the guy she loves, then all i have to do is be happy for the guy who makes her dreams come true... love can be such a pain sometimes but why take away someone's chance to be happy with someone they love and force them to fall in love with you? like she once said... it's wrong... so a few good men out there do exist and sometimes they do get exploited. for matthew in the show, man, i duno how u're gonna pick urself up after all tt u've given to meredith. but what i do know is, u have shown what it takes for someone to pour out all their heart to love someone and in the final battle to face the truth, you were a knight in shiny armour man. so here's to all the knights out there... fight for what you believe in... no matter what the outcome, be sure you have given your all.... cheers!
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