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Sunday, January 30, 2005
ok.... so this is just a test right? mum and dad had a quarrel just now. not much of a blessed evening i was hoping for. can't stand it. so i just chilled in the room, played playstation 2 and blasted greenday way loud... wat sia!! quarrel and argue like kids... set an example mind you.... there are still pple in the house u know. and dad... dun be too arrogant. WE helped u along the way remember?? we were there to ease the burden. dun ever write us off just like tt... dammit!!
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lazy sunday
::jufFeNder | | 1/30/2005 03:20:00 PM |
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it's been quite some time since i punched in huh? well, either i din have the mood to blog, or i was just too lazy to do anything. lemme see where i left off... ok... hari raya haji was ok. pretty boring i shld say. went to grandma's house and just ate and ate and ate. then on sunday, waited for sheeps day... they should call it sheepday instead of sunday. well, dun wanna say much on tt cos there's nothing to say abt it.
well, i went out with the guys again on a last minute bbq thingy. it's a friday night, so we went bbq at sembawang park and yeah just chilled, ate, sleep a lil and just talk abt everything. then i had a busy saturday to handle. after reaching hime at 5 in the morn, i had to work at 9, and jamming from 4 to 7pm. kick ass huh. by the time i reach home, i was so beat, i just crashed and slept. haah. today i had jamming again. 12 to 2pm. well, working on the music thingy. gotta keep it up.
anyway, i went to my music class and practiced as per normal. before finishing at 7 this band came in. they're pretty young and such. then before i end, this guy came up to me and said... hey, u're that northland band guy right? the alumni?... and i was like... yah.. ok so it's pretty freaky when someone out of nowhere just come up to u and said that they kinda know u but u've never seen em before. but yeah he's quite ok. at least it made me felt like a celeb. haah... for a while tt is.... dun worry kid, i'll work on my superstar status. hahahaha... oh well, talking abt music, i'm thinking of getting out of tejay's band. i can't commit to their jamming schedule. it's either they'd ask me to jam on working hrs or just when i have events to cover. it's pretty hard to adapt to them as well. the choice of music also not within my key of interest. so, i gotta break it nice and slow and they have to find a new vocalist. sad, but better release them of their misery then i make them wait and wait again.
anyway, my new schedule's working out great. i get to go to the gym after work, play music on weekends, or sometimes sacrifice either one for my events coverage and yeah photography is just cool. my friends get a huge slice of me as well. but i'm just missing her a little. i try not to think abt it but yeah sometimes it just comes to haunt. but if you were to ask me how i feel, i'd say... i miss her. but no nuts abt it cos i wanna stabilise my life and just do wat i wanna do first before asking her again.
'it's empty tonight and i'm all alone, get me through this one.... do you notice i'm gone... where do you run to so far away... i want you to know that i miss you... i miss you so... i want you to know that i miss you... i miss you so...' - letters to you
Friday, January 21, 2005
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inspirations and aspirations
::jufFeNder | | 1/21/2005 02:58:00 PM |
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today's hari raya aidiladha. goin to my grandma's house after this. waiting for my bro to finish doin his stuffs. anyway, i did blog an entry yesterday when my comp went bonkers. so they lost the entry. but i did call it the same title though. inspirations and aspirations....
i had a talk with a friend the other day. i realise he's just like me in character relating to the heart. we have the heart for someone, but when we open up our hearts, all we did was bleed. so it's better to leave it closed for now right bro? the topic on priorities emerged. i'm 21, and have like a few yrs ahead of me to get things done. so what are my priorities for now? altering my new yr resolutions for now...
- appreciate what i have now before i lose it later...
- family, friends, music and photography will be the target to excel in for the next few yrs to come...
- in other words, don't look to far ahead but focus on what i have now and utilise them to the max... or in short, strive not to equal but to excel.
i'm gonna ORD in September or if i calculate it right, i'll be gone by the end of August and start to clear my leave. then i gotta plan for what's in the near future. gonna get a job, provide for my family and take them out of this misery or at least lighten the misery. it's time i do more. friends... i love them all. schoolmates and close buddies, i'll try to spend more time with em and just treasure these little treasures of moments in life. music... i'm starting a band with jayson and his bro... once we're accomplished and comfortable playin together, i'll rope in my younger bro to play the drums while i try to shift in rhythm guitars or vox.... so i'm taking it a step at a time. photography.... i am so deep with photography. it's like my passion besides music. might just invest in one good camera in the near future and start offering services to cash in the dough.... so yeah... my plans for the next 3 yrs at least. so i hope to get a stable career by 24, be able to provide for my family by then and at the same time be in love with my passion for music and photography.
all these are just aspirations for the future and if i were to notice, i did not include the term relationship in there. but all these are just pre-planned and i believe that God has the powers to make em happen. for now, the whitephoenix i have in mind will just be my inspiration. maybe one day i'll find her again, maybe not. right now, everything is like sand in my hands. my aspirations and inspirations. if i let them stay there in the palm of my hands i believe that most of it will not flow thru the gaps on my fingers. but if i were to force these dreams to happen, it's like clenching the sand on my palm... everything will just fall off and i'll be left with little of it. so i'll just let it stay there and see how much of it is left without me forcing it to stay...
sidenote:
sorry i didn't call that day. already dialled your number but i didn't press the call button. i don't see the point in calling.
Sunday, January 16, 2005
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unsettled pieces
::jufFeNder | | 1/16/2005 11:11:00 PM |
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she said...' don't you think that you're a fool? you've been waiting for too long already. '
all i said was, 'it's part of a new yr resolution... i told myself to know where to stop and i will know when it'll be the time to stop. that moment will be the point where i say it out that... i've had enough...'
silly me.
Thursday, January 13, 2005
this was the moment i would wanna share with everyone. the sunset in phuket. and i was on the helicopter watching it all come down.... i wanna be in this atmosphere when i propose. nice...
this is the aerial view from the super puma.... they look like toys in the first place
ok as promised... here's one weird one.... a ship in the forest.... ok.. tt explains it.
this was taken on the plane to phuket. hey it's a beautiful morning to begin with...
this is me with dorothy at hard rock cafe. hmmm someone was supposed to be there so that i could dedicate the song to her. but yeah... shit happens... anyway, thanx dorothy for goin thru the performance with me. emo rules!
the other NSPI dudes in our christmas get together.... yeah we dommed..
the emo dudes... enough told...
me and din during the visit to the school of the deaf. man this guy sticks to me like glue. i've found another little bro!
this is me during the photo shoot the other day. was just fooling around though.
Monday, January 10, 2005
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aftermath...
::jufFeNder | | 1/10/2005 11:15:00 PM |
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my deepest condolences to the tsunami victims...
i was there for an aftermath analysis of the tragedy. the island seems like it was a warzone. beaches ripped and torn. ships and boats thrown around the island like toys... the sight of the island was.... amazingly disastrous. life still goes on there and there are still tourists around and some have already hit the beaches suntanning and what have you.... but the locals are the ones suffering i guess... the homes and resorts near the beaches are just super wiped out. i've got photos of em... will load once i get the pictures back from office...
visited the mortuary there as well. first time smelling loads of dead pple... and i can tell u it sticks to my nose and it's very uncomfortable. the sight of them haunts as well. i got to ride in the super puma courtesy of the republic of sngapre air force, RSAF. so i got a view of phuket from the sky.... and i felt that the sky welcomed me as well or shld i say... the sun was bidding me farewell by leaving me in awe by displaying its amazing setting rays. after viewing the beaches and just goin thru parts of the town, i have got to say tt singaporeans are very very very lucky. i wouldn't wanna be the ones in Aceh too... heard it's worse off there. but i did my job at phuket and now tt i'm back, i gotta get my magazine up and running again.
alrighty.... will publish photos in 2 days time... and i'll just hang loose for a while. taking the day off tomorrow but will be back in the afternoon to sit in for an interview. smile happy pple... life is precious...
Saturday, January 08, 2005
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sunday = destination phuket
::jufFeNder | | 1/08/2005 03:25:00 PM |
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saturday afternoon. time 3:25. weird... i'm home on a saturday afternoon playing songs on my comp and updating my blog. a bit nonsensical isn't it. but as per in the mail i received.
'have ample of rest on saturday, prepare urself mentally for what u're abt to witness in phuket on sunday. it's going to be a long day for you. so do take care...'
i'm flying off tomorrow morning at 7:45... need to be at the airport by 6:15. then it'll be an hr flight to phuket. i should be coming back the same night. at ard 8:45. an extensive measure for an NS man like me. i can't reveal flight details and what we're gonna do there but yeah... the trip is a sure go. they provided me a mask, no, lots of masks to bring along there. anyway, i'll be peter parker and the experience is an eye opener let alone the smell. i just pray that everything turns out well.
alrighty, i've packed my cameras and only bringing an extra shirt or something to change cos i might just dispose off the shirt that i'll be wearing to phuket. otherwise... mentally prepared? guess not.... but as they say... lan lan... but it's cool with me.
Friday, January 07, 2005
interviewed taufik till 2 am yesterday. got home at 3 am. went to sleep and woke up at 8 am... late for work but if they blame me, then i think i should go on strike.
well i've had one hell of a week. scratched someone's car, dateless for dinner and dance as expected and to top it all up i'm goin to phuket this sunday. yeah, the tsunami area.... wonder what could happen there... another tsunami? sum up my week will ya....
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
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what luck....
::jufFeNder | | 1/04/2005 10:04:00 PM |
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so it's the new yr and everything... but i'm kicking it off on a very bad note... or should i say, a very bad week... shots of taufik didn't turn out very good during the day but i'll tag along for his night shift to make up for my mistakes. sorry man... got ur call and i'll be there during ur night shift. dun worry... i'll make u look good for the magazine.
well tt's not the worst of the lot. while i was riding home today, thinking to myself, 'yes! i'm goin home early today! this is gonna be so nice...' well tt was not to be.... somehow, i did not turn right at a junction i was supposed to turn. so i thought... ok i'll turn at the next one... just a longer route tt's all. then as i checked into the right lane, this car in front of me did an emergency brake! so i swerved to the left of that car...and pow! there goes his left mirror... and that bloody bastard horned at me calling me back...totally crap... i was like... shit... u were the one who put me in that situation! and it's like all the blame was on me... and tt guy in the car was like... 'simple... u just pay me...' being an officer of the law helped at that time... so i said 'sir, we pull our vehicles over to the side and we'll settle it there...' so after we pulled up by the side of the road... i was checking his damage... ok... it was bad, his mirror almost dropped... but come to think abt it... it's not my fault... he jammed brake suddenly, i swerved lucky enough not to hit an oncoming car, then now he demands payment? man.... how farkin unlucky is tt? well he said, he'll go get it fixed and forward the receipt to me... fark fark fark fark fark fark fark fark.... so i learnt my lesson.... no matter how happy u are... there'll always be something that will be a factor and just paints ur whole day black.... sigh.... i'll ride wisely next time... no use fretting abt it... just pay lah if it's a reasonable amount.
what else could go wrong? no one to bring for my dinner and dance? i dunno... if tt's the case then... i'm plain 'lucky'
Sunday, January 02, 2005
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Corrinne May - My Idol....
::jufFeNder | | 1/02/2005 11:23:00 AM |
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if you find the song nice.... here are the lyrics.... cheers!
"When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
SIlver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away ohh...
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
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an angel took my breath away... unsuspectedly
::jufFeNder | | 1/02/2005 01:19:00 AM |
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she... she made my whole new year's eve such a memorable one.... she is just so amazing.... amazingly beautiful... amazingly talented... and the most important thing is... she captured my heart... to me... she's an angel... and not many ladies will be classified as angels in my life... but now she had won her way to my heart.
i was spending the eve with my buds at the esplanade. at first there was no plan to meet up there to chill but we went anyway. i made my way to the outdoor stage.... when i heard lim yu beng making some announcements. so i thought i'd hang out. then came the angel... she turned heads once she starts to speak. i was so in awe when she started to sing i admit i didn't want to leave. she's none other than corrine may. she's based in LA but she's a singaporean and man.... she's one of a kind i shld say. i've placed her song at the playlist below..... please do yourselves a favour and do click on the play button... if u want... u can right click on the player and go to 'zoom', 'full screen'... and u will see her video from there... i dun have the space below to expand the player to let u guys view it here... BUT PLEASE DO PRESS THE PLAY BUTTON BELOW. i guarantee u will be blown away.
well... i'm so in love with her right now... i know it's not logical... but she moved me... and it's hard for someone to be able to do that other than whitephoenix.... so... yeah do check her out....
here are some photos though from the outing...
happy new year all... god bless...
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