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Sunday, October 30, 2005
after reading... and listening... and reading again... here's what i have to say.
eventually the blame falls on me.
maybe it's my fault....
or has it ever crossed your conscience that it might be yours?
but my sentiments tell me that it's both mine and yours...
don't tell me that i didn't try, for i did...
you made me face the wall...
think... reflect... reminisce... whatever you want to call it...
but my decisions are the best for the both of us...
we call it quits so we'd move on...
you know what....
whatever.....
Thursday, October 27, 2005
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trip to geylang with mum....
::jufFeNder | | 10/27/2005 02:16:00 PM |
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flipped out of my sleep early this morning [1000hrs...-_-]. yeah i know.... 1000hrs seems late isn't it? but i'm accustomed to it already.... yes i know.... Pig....
oh well, mum asked me out today. haah... to geylang and get some stuff for the coming raya. so me and my little gilera, whom i've not named yet, zoomed off to geylang, with my mum as my pilion of course. one thing about having my mum as a pillion is that i know not to speed. and whenever i turn she'd tell me that i'm turning as if i'm performin a stunt...and yeah the grip on the shoulder gets tighter. so i'm riding at 60km/h on the expressway, ignoring all the pissed off look from drivers and riders alike who overtook me. but yeah who cares!!! i'm havin my mum as my pillion man! one swing of her bag and all of you will crumble in accidents!
anyway, gotten to geylang and went thru the market and all. it's so warm i tell you. can die of heat exhaustion. and mum had to buy 11.5 kg of bananas! i was like thinking... ok so where do i squeeze all these things on my bike? if that wasn't enough, we went around buying some other nuts and stuff. when we got back to the bike, ok it was hard to dump everything inside the bike! but i managed to remove the unnecessary and packed it nicely for a safe journey home. slow but steady they say.
reached home dried up from the trip. yeah so you can bet i dread riding on a hot afternoon during the fasting month. can feel the dryness....
Saturday, October 22, 2005
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a little update...
::jufFeNder | | 10/22/2005 03:54:00 PM |
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hmmm... ok it's been a while since i punched in. don't ask me why. there was supposed to be a previous entry here but after typing out my closing para, the comp hanged on me. -_- maybe it just didn't want that particular entry to be published.
alrighty, we're already halfway thru the fasting month and yeah it's pretty fast isn't it. cool. i managed to spend time breaking my fast together with hunny. she even helped me scour geylang for my hari raya outfit. thank you so much dearest. 8] so i've got my outfit ready and i'm in the midst of preparing my house for the festive season as well.
anyway, just a brief update on what i'm doing... which is practically nothing much. cos really i've got nothing much to do. but i'm helping out at home, doin the chores... wakin up late... and all those things which involves the tv. speaking about that, my SCV boom box went cranky and just died on me. gonna have to call up the dudes of SCV to get that fixed. before mum starts naggin again that is.
oh yes... a brand new addition to my ride... actually it's a replacement to my old ride. it's been great to have that bike zooming around and getting me from place A to place B. but it's time for that bike to go. and i have to make way for this new ride of mine. my Gilera Runner!! haven installed my IU unit yet though. cos the company said they ran out of it. shall fix it for me when they have stock of it comin in sometime next week.
ok it's pretty easy to use, no clutch or stuff like that to handle. so it's easy on the mind when riding. but pretty lazy though. but the best thing of all... would be no more wet butt after rainy days!!! cos my old bike used to have this hole on the seat that would really absorb the rain and yeah subsequently transfer it over to my butt making the whole journey a more 'pleasant' experience. ok, enough on that. as you can see, there's a little storage compartment at the back. so it's pretty easy for mum to send me for despatch. haaha.
well at the first ride home with the new bike, i got mum to meet me at the void deck. then ferried her to get some stuff over at the market on the new bike!! haahaah... yeah u can say that she enjoyed the ride. she was basically telling me that it's nice to finally sit on a cushioned seat rather than having to hold on real tight to me when riding on my old bike.
ok as per mentioned in the previous entry, it's a bummer to share my bike with my bro too. since he has troubles with his old bike, he's gonna have my bike at his mercy as well. i pray that he wun cause so much damage...
Thursday, October 13, 2005
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biker mice from mars...
::jufFeNder | | 10/13/2005 02:11:00 PM |
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i've not really posted a picture of my bike. but here he is... my yamaha off road ride... he's been with me for a while, but i have no idea how long he'll be able to stay with me till. plans are on the way to accomodate both me and my elder bro by selling away my bike and getting a new one to be shared with my elder bro.... pfffttt i know...
initially, he came in an all white body, but subsequently he's been touched up with blue decals. but finally i thought it's time to change, thus i whipped out the black paint and smeared it all over him. got out the red paint and splatted it over at key areas to get the bloody feel. but yeah, that's just my interpretation or my reason for doin that to my bike.
oh well, he's doesn't know that he's gonna get sold yet, so i really appreciate it if you guys dun tell him if you see him on the road. he might throw a tantrum and yeah he'll leave you stranded in the middle of nowhere at the most inappropriate time. don't test him, cos i know.
a new ride?
well the featured bike is the one proposed to purchase. it's errrmmm smaller and more economical so to speak. ok so i'm trying to point out the positives. who am i kidding... ok if i were to give in... i'd probably help to purchase that bike for a while... then after that... i'm goin for my super 4 man...
haah... me and my aspirations... i just hope to as stable as i can be within the next few years cos i've got plans to cover. ;) bikes... droolsss....
Monday, October 10, 2005
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7 deadly sins...
::jufFeNder | | 10/10/2005 08:18:00 PM |
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7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME.
1. God
2. heights freak me out
3. losing my loved one
4. god further enhancing my height
5. leaving earth before getting married to her
6. the extinction of music
7. being a bad son, father, husband, friend
7 THINGS THAT I LIKE.
1. spending time with my hunny.
2. music
3. photography
4. writing thoughts which only make sense to me
5. PS2 and other related game consoles which makes my lonely time worthwhile
6. responsibility
7. trying to be perfect though i'm not
7 MOST IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY ROOM.
1. first of all, i dun have a room on my own. i share.
2. but nonetheless, my bags...
3. my electric and acoustic guitar
4. my chin up bar
5. my cupboard full of the things i wear, without em i'm nakey...
6. my CD collection
7. the physical treasures she gave to me
7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME.
1. i like to sleep a lot.
2. i write music not for the purpose of performing but for the sole purpose of passion.
3. i am very cautious in what i do.
4. i hate boxers... they leave me hanging...
5. i am trying very hard to save up and move out...
6. i am looking forward to the future and all its challenges together with my hunny.
7. i believe in karma and doing things in which i believe in accomplishing well.
7 THINGS I PLAN TO DO BEFORE I DIE.
1. get married
2. build a great home
3. have my own car
4. see my kids off to school...
5. fulfil my haj pilgrimage...
6. if there's ever a technology wic could do engraving on hearts, i'd want to have her name engraved on mine.
7. do everything i hope to do not listed within this 7 points.
7 THINGS I CAN DO.
1. I can act like a pole
2. I can appreciate music
3. I can love my hunny with the whole of my heart. no worries.
4. I can play the drums, guitars and a little of the keyboard
5. I can daydream the whole day
6. I can talk myself out of confusion...
7. I can continue telling myself to improve even without pple telling me so.
7 THINGS I CAN'T DO.
1. I can't sing...
2. I can't dance...
3. I can't get married right now even if i want to...
4. I can't scale heights without looking down...
5. I can't understand mats... and all that comes in the package.
6. I can't feel happiness without her...
7. I can't jump off buildings and land without getting hurt...
7 WORDS I SAY MOST.
1. "kau!!!"
2. hmmmm
3. hunny...
4. eh...
5. errrmm
6. ok
7. refer to point 3....
7 CELEB CRUSHES.
1. jessica alba
2. jessica alba
3. jessica alba
4. jessica alba
5. jessica alba
6. jessica alba
7. and yeah... jessica alba...
Thursday, October 06, 2005
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dashconfes
::jufFeNder | | 10/06/2005 10:15:00 PM |
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screaming infidelities - dashboard confessional
I'm missing your bed, I never sleep.
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast is taking me home
i'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets
but you're not alone & you're not discreet.
You make sure I know who's taking you home.
I'm reading your note over again.
There is not a word I comprehend,
except when you signed it "I will love you always & forever."
As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs,
and sit alone & wonder, how you're making out,
but as for me I wish that I was anywhere with anyone making out.
I'm missing your laugh, how did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you are pretending.
i'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets
i am alone
in my defeat, i wish i'd knew we were simply at home
I'm missing your bed, I never sleep.
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast is taking me home
As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs,
and sit alone & wonder, how you're making out,
but as for me I wish that I was anywhere with anyone making out.
Your hair. It's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities. Taking its wear.
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
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a history worth writing...
::jufFeNder | | 10/05/2005 02:37:00 PM |
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so, i'm done with my NS life. had my ups and downs and memories embedded in the history pages of my little life...
so, as the tekong era came to a close, i found myself enlisted with the men in blue and doing things that i never thought of doing from my cadet days all the way till i ORDed.
the 39th batch of NSIs. a bunch of crazy fellas who indeed have the eye for pushing till the very end. these people have brought out the best and the worst in me and pushed me thru to exccel in whatever i do. i thank you guys for everything. to be in the same barrack and sharing the same parade square and wearing the same turnout as you guys had been an honour. something i'll cherish for the rest of my life. in short, you guys rock....
the 39th NSI whom i spent 9 months of my training life with....
not forgetting the upper barrack... insane...
through everything we've gone thru, we've gained valuable knowledge and proper sometimes improper values too. but thru it all, it's been a blast...
POP oh! the day my parents fixed the rank for me... so yeah... i dun think i let them down... 8]
well, we didn't just parted after that, we do hold usual gatherings and such just to keep us close.
gathering at novotel apollo...
moving on... i was posted to PAD, after spending some time on the ground as a frontline officer, and at PAD doin something close to a photojournalist for the force and going everywhere in singapore with my ultimate weapon... my camera...
this is me... during a photoshoot for the bumper...
not forgetting my so so so messy desk....
the emo dudes... haah... they add a smile and a purpose for NS i tell you... awesome bunch...
well, i guess the highlight of my NS days would be the trip to phuket with deputy commissioner and documenting the operations there... it's an amazingly disastrous sight which i know i won't forget. not forgetting the scent. but i got the opportunity to see the dead and get footages on the ground as well as the air....
phuket....
but like they said... when there's death there's always life... and i came back loving life more than i did before... served life with a purpose and yeah did some community work as well at the singapore school for the deaf...
me and the kids of the yellow house... yeah and dun ask abt the hat... it's a judge thingy....
and to round it off... i managed to perform with dorothy at the hard rock cafe for the dinner and dance... it was nice... but if only i had a date back then, it'd be perfect....
i should say, it's been a blast with all that had happened... i really thank all of em for playing a part in me being a better person. the good, the bad and the ugly will be shown during NS. but it's always the positive and the strong who makes the most out of it. i'm glad i did fine... survived NS and still loving life... nice....
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