.::..and the reason is you..::.
.::..and the reason is you..::. // assure me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes to navigate the darkness...
**r@nd0m fr3ezEfr@m3s**

---scr3@m|nG n@buL@3s |n bLooM---

:: scr3@m|nG n@buL@3s |n bLooM ::
|reY@r| |hiSkand@nianIte|
miNgmiNg| J@nsonitE|
|J@y Jovi| id@rlIng| k@pt3n m@r| qu@n::DeN|
|ed|ti0n 3| broth3rhooD oF wiLdparrOts|

:: NOise InfLu3nCes ::
|ev@n3sc3ncE| |@lL @m3r|c@n r3j3cts|
|d@sHbo@rd c0nF3ss|on@L| ||ink|n p@rk|
||ncUbus| |th3 @tar|s|
|ho0b@staNk| |12 sT0n3s| |yelLowcard|
|U2| |lOstpROphEts| |m@tchbOx 20|
|mY chEmic@L r0m@ncE| |t@kinG baCk sUnd@y|
|cOrriNn3 m@y| |b@nds| |Ultim@te guIt@r|

:: frEquenTs ::
|mo0Lah| |d3v|@nt_@rT|
|dEpthc0re| |fr|3ndsT3r| |b|ogG3r|
|fo0tb@lL!!| |mEnsh3@Lth|

---th3 r3belL|oN sO f@R---

|n|ti@L:
JufF

ex|sT@nc3:
siNc3 1983
vOc@t|on:
curR3ntLy jedi trooper
curR3Nt no|s3m@k3rs:
we are kings, ungu

---mus|C tO mY eArs---

all music and lyrics ©opyright of all artists mentioned

exp3r|encEs |n L|f3 exPresS3d thRu mY thoUGhts....

||--str|v3 n3ver t0 eQuaL buT t0 exCeL--||

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

:: scaffolding chapters... ::jufFeNder 8/30/2006 02:39:00 PM

chpt 1 : my job....

my leave's frozen for now till late september i guess. so i think tt sucks. oh well, i'm deployed for IMF duties so, that puts a halt in so many things. it's gonna be tiring and my driving lessons are to be put on hold. my private life's gonna be affected. i'm gonna be goin home late and reporting early for work. but then again... as they say... it comes with the job.

chpt 2 : driving

well i went for my final theory test today [funny how i managed to drag so long to sit for the test]. i had a perception not to come back to the centre to sit in front of the computer and guessing the answers again. so i read the questions carefully and answered them to the best of my knowledge even though stoned after night shift. amazingly i passed. don't really know by how much but i passed. so yay! hurray! one down so that leaves the rest of the practicals and the actual TP test. so now i'm staring at my booklet which states that the next lesson wld be lesson 23. but then again, as much as i am looking forward to completing the lessons ASAP, the reality of this world pulls me back. yes the moolah and the time. i'll try to get my license hopefully before my birthday. then it'll be great. so yeah work hard juff.

chpt 3 : life

and yes, hunny went for a management trip to KL yesterday. she should be coming back tomorrow. she messaged me when she arrived at KL and yeah my worst prediction came true. she got the motion sickness. somehow hunny can't stand long long journeys. she get headaches and thus needs to crash out after that. bummer way to start of the trip huh? anyway, i guess she picked herself up after sleeping the night off. hope she's havin fun and unwinding cos she really needs it. guess her work is much more pressurising than mine. well, i can say that it's not the same without her here in Singapore. even though it's just that short of a trip, i'm a worried and lovesick man. weird but that's just me. can't wait for her to get back.

a few days back, i also had the chance to tag along to the hospital to pay a visit to hunny's sis who just gave birth to a baby boy. congrats to her. my hunny was so captured by the sight of her first nephew that she can't seem to wipe off the smirk on her face. she's just so... happy. the preview of the motherly side of her i guess. but that's always a good thing. so yeah i met up with her parents and again answered an avalanche of questions but i did fine. i didn't lie. so that's a good thing. and yeah i felt good talking to them too. friendly bunch. homey... 8]

chpt 4 : misses

i woke up a couple of days ago in the midst of my leave staring into the blank ceiling and started to wonder off. i miss hanging out the most. you know... just lay back, relax... munch on some junk food... share some jokes... travel without ever thinking of spending much but just travelling and walking around... grab something upon discovering the slogan which states "SALE". planning another chill out trip the next day without ever thinking of 'damn there's work after tomorrow' kinda thing.

i miss playing the guitar and just have a bunch of friends who share the same joy and passion as i do in creating and playing music. a get-together where the only experience i had was in poly and in that modelling room where the 3 of us - pop, alifah and me - would just chill out with a guitar, played some songs, sing along to some of the classics of dashboard confessional, radiohead, jewel and unleash some penned down thoughts in lyrical fashion. it's like anything that we play turned out to be real emo and it just sticks to you. classes finish by 5 or 6 but when we're through with the acoustic session, it was like almost ten. those days were like hours which i felt like minutes now that it's down in memory lane. i wonder where they are right now. well, alifah's in friendster, but pop's kinda disappear. miss them.

i miss soccer too... it's hard when i'm in shitty shifts and the lads from karipap FC and wildparrots are all scattered all over the world. and i mean all over the world. yeah i miss soccer. guess the next time i wanna organise soccer get-togethers, it'll be like booking for a wedding photographer 6 months in advance.

oh well.... chapters of my life unfolding... missing so many things in life...


Monday, August 07, 2006

:: dashconfes ::jufFeNder 8/07/2006 12:29:00 PM

The package from Amazon came the other day and yeah I've gotten my hands on dashboard CDs once again. Gotten the first 2 albums of "So impossible" and "Places you have come to fear the most". I also got my hands on the latest "Dusk and Summer" album.

dashboard confessional


The first two albums are vintage dashboard. awesome acoustics and heart wrecking lyrics that'll put your thoughts on hold in the midst of digestion. well if you're a die hard fan of dash board like i am then please do not hesitate and just purchase these albums. it's worth every penny for that purchased rebellion.

Here's the band version of Don't wait, the next player is for their plain acoustic version. typical dashboard. love em.


Don't Wait
By Dashboard Confessional



Don't Wait (Live)
By Dashboard Confessional


Tuesday, August 01, 2006

:: IPPT results ::jufFeNder 8/01/2006 01:46:00 PM

they postponed my first IPPT to 28th July due to the rain. so i turned up sleepy and such at the old PA. Here's the results. ok oklah for me. can do better. basically i aimed for the minimum to get 5 points for each station. haah.

1 minute Sit ups :: 42
Shuttle Run :: 9.0 secs
standing broad jump :: 256cm
Pull ups :: 12
2.4 run :: 10mins 56secs [-_-]

Results :: Silver.

You bet i was disappointed with the running part when i could do the rest with ease. crap. i shall continue running... till the next IPPT. Revenge....


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