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Friday, February 24, 2006
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anger and anticipation...
::jufFeNder | | 2/24/2006 02:42:00 PM |
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today's second off. yesterday i had to pick my elder brother up all the way in bedok. sometimes i feel that he's too pampered till he's taking everything for granted. this morning i sent dad for his dialysis treatment. woke up at 0545 for that. but that's ok. and my mum's really naggy today i don't know why. but seriously she irritated the hell out of me this morning. can't stand it when she tells me to do things repeatedly and keep on reminding me every 2 minutes. it's like, where's the patience? i don't remember her telling my elder bro to do anything! and he's expecting things to go down easy but apparently things are not going too well for him. and that will definitely affect the rest of the family too. in other words, screw him man. i'm sick of this.
well today's my dinner and dance. thanks to the people of PAD who invited me down. we're gonna have it in the zoo. haah, how cool is that? D&D in the jungle. hopefully they don't sabo me though. not in the mood lah today. talk about mood swings.... but i'll try to entertain. hmmmm many things on my mind suddenly. i'll talk it out with dearest later on. cos this year, she's coming with me to D&D, unlike last year, which I finally turned up alone.
ok right, i'm just gonna chill out till later...
Sunday, February 19, 2006
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details....
::jufFeNder | | 2/19/2006 08:58:00 PM |
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she told me that it's all part of the choices that you make
even when you think you're right
you have to give to take....
lost prophets :: last train home
we got a blasting from DTL yesterday. well i'd say the team deserved it. totally. maybe it's a wake up call. but then again, we'll have to see about that. the team's stagnant i should say. contented and complacent at the status we're in right now. funny how we think we know everything but the pride does not come with the work at times. and sometimes i really wonder whether i've stepped into a shithole and i really feel like a jackass.
but then again, that's not me. I know what i wanna achieve in life. maybe it'll take time for me to get there but i wanna get there. anyway, DTL mentioned that if we're not gonna Up our pace, we're gonna fall behind once N7 comes to place under our jurisdiction. I have to agree with him no matter how pathetic it might sound. coos we are somehow pathetic. some of us just can't be bothered to be bothered. they'll start cleaning the shit after it happens and not try to find a toilet first before shit happens. and i on the other hand is just trying to learn as much as i can and try not to screw things up. we need more of these wake up calls man..... whack the bugger man....
anyway, i sincerely admit that i'm not spending so much time with my other half. work commitments and the tiring factor right after night shift takes its toll at times. i'm sorry hunny. but the time spent talking things out under the stars and just doin nothing while enjoying the breeze is very much treasured. well i hope time will play its part in allowing me to put aside more of my time with you. i love you so much dear.
sometimes the things i say
in moments of disarray
succumbing to the games we play
to make sure that it's real
staind :: everything changes
my seconds turn to minutes
days evolve to months
still i'm finding myself
falling in a never ending pit
lost in the serenity of your heart
never have i taken for granted
things that we share in common
through the good and the bad
i'll care
the angel falls from above
not on broken wings
but one thrown from a gentle thrust
for me...
i can never say enough 'thank you's
neither can i spell out enough 'I Love You's
for words can never amount
to the amount of breath
which i've breathed every single one
for you...
my heart's stolen
and i can't get it back
for if i do
i'm nothing more than a blank stack of cards
waiting to be written
torn, touched
i'll look forward to the dawn
when time plays no more part
in immortalising the invisible force we have in between us
for now
and till the heavens merge with mortality
i'm yours....
-jufF-
Saturday, February 18, 2006
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clickies...
::jufFeNder | | 2/18/2006 12:09:00 PM |
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just click and click and click....
1::::: johari window
2::::: your views so far
Sunday, February 05, 2006
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a special request....
::jufFeNder | | 2/05/2006 10:56:00 PM |
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"when they open their eyes
and realise we are one
till the day we carry on
i know our day will come" - alter bridge :: open your eyes
when they open their eyes and realise we are one......
i don't really know about you guys but this song rocks the socks off my ears man. not just the solo mark trimonti does but just the whole song as it is. it's amazing. anyway, that's an excerp taken off alter bridge's open your eyes. cool song. check it out on the playlist below.
alrighty, everyone's been working really hard these few months but i guess the person i've seen working the hardest is my other half. whenever i see her, i could see that she's trying so hard to balance up her life, spreading time between work and life and most importantly sleep. i can count the hours she catches her sleep with just one hand. at times, i feel that she's working too hard. but i know her. she's like my reflection. we won't rest till the job's done proper no matter what people say. commitment perhaps? or is it just self-expectation? where can we draw the line. well most of the time we fail cos we're just perfectionists. but if there's one thing i could ask for in life right now is for God to take away her workload and allow her to have wings and fly to the clouds for solitude, allowing her to sleep in the soft clouds of heaven. ok maybe that's like 4 things. but the point is that i want her to have tonnes of rest, as little worries as possible and to just relax and enjoy her days as a normal human being free from the hassles of work life. but if that's too much to ask then i'd pray for her to be strong and i'll do whatever i can to help her out. so God, if you're reading my blog, this is my request. thank you for even reading this.
Thursday, February 02, 2006
alrighty, the laptop is still down. keyboard ain't functioning. so jayson, stop buggin! anyway, i think after the next jamming session we'll just head over to your place to download all the tracks down since you already have the noble idea of compiling the songs. aight? ok.
anyway, my sis's sleeping like a log in this humid day. that explains why i'm on the comp and online. alrighty, i managed to revamp the songlist down there. so you guys can listen to most of the tracks that i listen to. well that is if you wanna listen to it.
alrighty, i've had some screw ups at work so yeah i'm expecting a blow out anytime soon. but i'm ready for it since i'm not so well informed of my wrong actions anyway. so bring on the scoldings!! i'm gonna be like a sponge and absorb it straight in and release it back to you by correcting my faults.
on night shift today and gonna be awake the whole night cos i'm on counter duty for second half. yeah, need loads of coffee.... and yeah mum's pestering me to pay the household bills today.... not just her alone... even dad. yes the big boss. i'll go quickly and come back hopefully to crash out and wake up preparing for work later on at 1700hrs....
ok right... go~
"no one's perfect...."
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