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Thursday, April 28, 2005
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what are the odds....
::jufFeNder | | 4/28/2005 08:30:00 PM |
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yes, what are the odds of the tire on ur vehicle bit the nail just 3 days after u renew ur road tax? 1:1000. and tt's a probability not many pple can hope to hit. and yes i belong to the few exceptional pple who get busted in that situation.
so now one word.... fark.....
hell man, no bike for now... aahhhh....
i wanna play my music. i wanna go on a holiday. STOP WHINING! ok.
i'm just jammed up right now. i dunno if i'm pissed or angry or confused or what else have you... but i'm definitely pissed at someone or at least 2 pple to say the least. i think it's high time both of u grow up man. i can't stand it anymore.
for one, dun u feel guilty? i'm settling everything for u as if i'm your guardian angel! well i'm not!! i have my needs and my own stuffs to settle!! i have a life!!!! but i'm settling stuffs for you in which i know i have no responsibilities over!!! and u?? u walk around as if nothing's happened! u think everything's so easy. they come as u please, u order whatever you want and u want to make things happen like as if u're GOD!! well if i have a money printing machine at home then i can do that for you, bu the problem is i don't! u better fuckin wake up ur god damn idea! and yes just the thought of this is fucking pissing me off. and i haven even got to the second person yet!
and no i'm not gonna hide my pissed off emotions for the second person. yes, u may be older, and u might just be in the god damn planet for much longer period than i am. but that does not mean that i demand no respect. dammit! u can say u're the lao chiao or whatever u wanna call it but what you do is nothing compared to what i do. so just fuck off with ur ideology that the longer u are there, the higher u are and that everyone shld just kowtow to u. fuck u! and u say that anybody can do my job? well fuck u again. u come into my hot seat and u try to do what i do. u write one damn good article and take one damn good article and you try to please everybody. u god damn try it! see if u ever meet my mark. so dun u ever come to me and say that this is not good, that is not good and come up with the 'if i were you... i'd...' phrase and start thinking u're better than me. well u're not! just stick to ur side of the wall man and dun tell me what to do just because u think u are better than me.
i know it's like kinda egoistic for me to speak like this. but these pple are driving me up the wall. at one point i'd just want to punch a few pple in their fuckin faces. i'm holding back i know. 5 more months to ORD. positively 3 more months of work.
Sunday, April 24, 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTIE~!
May Allah bless you with the happiness in life alongside your loved ones.
yes this may sound weird, but i actually do remember a friend's mother's birthday. and yey! it's today! well, i do hope she's having a blast of a time amidst the busy preparation for her eldest son's wedding. still, it's not a sin to take time off for today to chill out and enjoy your special day.
Happy birthday once again.
Friday, April 22, 2005
feels great when u know u dun have to turn up for work. and yeah it's not even the weekends yet!
ok so i woke up late today. sent my bike for repairs.... and jammed in the afternoon for a solid 4 hrs man. first we ran thru the usual songs... then when we got bored, we created tunes and tried to fine tune it. still it's like works in progress. played a couple of my songs too... i switched to the guitars today for a while... apart, secrets in my head.... even that one old tune called 'why'...
secrets in my head turned out pretty good i might add. with the solos starting to come in. and something like coldplay started emerging.
anyway, it's been a nice day. hope today, friday, will turn out even better. love the holidays!
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
i thought of taking leave on thurs and fri just to relax and escape from everything. that would really amount to a long weekend. 4 days break in total. sounds nice? yeah. that is if my leave falls through. My partner in crime journalism is pretty well organised i might say. at least it beats his predecessor by a mile. the attitude towards work that is. i'm gonna escape this week cos he told me that he's gonna need to take quite a lot of leave next week. so yeah... before shit happens... i better psych myself up for it... by taking a well deserved break that is.
ok... so if you're hearing the song playin in the backgrd, it's my creation back in 2001 i guess. from the title itself i think u get to figure out that it's gonna be of a bad relationship turnout thingy. it was actually, a poem to begin with. was writing it out of disappointment, betrayal, deceit and the suffering of a major heamorrhage of the heart. i kept it simple and true as i want it to be. after i wrote the whole thing... i picked up the guitar and started playin a string of chords. place em together and stared aimlessly at the lyrics. then it came... it just came. modified a few words... tightened my playing and there you have it.... apart.
i only play the song under special circumstances actually. special requests... and stuffs like that. played it twice in front of a crowd. once in 3rd yr poly and one more during the DG gathering. but i guess it was worth it. there's still a few more songs which i want to record if i have the chance to. guess i'll just enjoy writing now and just play what i wanna play.
'be with me.....'
Sunday, April 17, 2005
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the signs!
::jufFeNder | | 4/17/2005 11:15:00 AM |
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how much fun did i have yesterday? loads of it. i was a volunteer at the singapore school for the deaf helping out with the sports day event. headed out to the school and reached there at 8 am. damn man, i'm not even that early for work. but still i wanted to be a role model for the kids. well since they're special, i thought i wun wanna let them down by coming late. then it'll look pretty bad as a first impression. and yeah, it's pretty amazing how these students actually carry out their everyday activities and when it comes to sports, they're like us too. all out to win.
together with some other staff from my department, we headed down to assist in the event as helpers and yeah me, gerald and mr chong were the judges for the event. pretty amazing cos by the end of the day i was able to communicate with basic sign language with some of the students and even some of the teachers there. great. oh well... i'll share with you some of the photos taken yesterday. haah this time it was sharil who took over my responsibilities as the camera dude. peter parker needed a rest.
the awesome judges pose!
mr chong, me and gerald...
tt's me and gerald... errr...
yeah us again... the wizard of id looking at clint 'darth vader wannabe' westwood
the face off before the event...
okay... take ten steps forward... face-off!
still.... the kids stole the limelight...
though occasionally... we'd be our usual selves... hogging the attention...
yeah we signed....
nothing else to say...
and who said you can't be passionate when you sign?
haah... overall... a great day doing something good. i feel satisfied with myself. i think i'll help out with the school as and when they need me lah. it's like i'm finally bonding myself to the volunteer thingy and yeah the SSD made me feel like the better side of me. alrighty... till next time....
Thursday, April 14, 2005
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gone with the wind
::jufFeNder | | 4/14/2005 10:03:00 AM |
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ok, the reason for not updating is i've been pretty busy these past few days [who isn't?]. i know that's lame for a reason but yeah i've been leaving the office at 11 plus to 12 for the past 3 days. and yes i am tired.
so it's like 16 hr shifts for me. tt's ok but after a long run, i'm starting to have the mindset that i'm only serving my NS. so why commit so much. but i know that it's only me that i need to prove wrong, not others. in order to prove others wrong i think i gotta set targets for myself. not so high maybe but still a target. nothing is more pleasurable than to excel in whatever u're doing. putting in that little extra effort i mean.
oh well, my countdown timer reads 90 working days left. well that's like derived after taking away the public holidays, my leave accumulation and my extra hours accumulation. without all those, it'll be like.... 160 more days to ORD. tt's like what... 5 months ++? yey!
i can't wait to go for a break, or a getaway once again. i'll plan my holiday trip sooon and first i gotta think of what to do after NS. time to read the job manual...
Monday, April 11, 2005
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in any case of emergency....
::jufFeNder | | 4/11/2005 11:40:00 PM |
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please press the panic button.... well due to the tremors and everything else... everyone's panicky. but it was all the way cool in the office. no one panicked though there's like tons of work to do. everything in life is like that i guess. the tremors of life, and your reaction to it. sometimes people are just too non chalant to be bothered. but some are too petrified to even face it.
anyway, enough of the tremors. i'm thinking of saving up for a bass guitar. then progressively i'll get an electonic drumset if i have the mooooooniieeee. still, i'd want to set up a mini studio if i ever get to move to a new home at a later stage of my life. cos i think that music is in my soul and yeah i pray hard it'll be in my spouse's blood as well. then yeah, i think it'll be awesome to play music and still enjoy time with the family. yes dreams can be a reality if u work hard for it. and part of the dream is that edition 3 wun have to pay to play anymore. we'd have our own place to hang out all day and yeah enjoy the music with family and friends. how nice....
alrighty, before i get too carried away with my thoughts, i'd like to say congrats to fajar band for achieving their target gold for the SYF. well, nazra worked very hard to motivate the band and sticking with them thru good and poor and really played a pivotal role in ensuring the band's success. kudos to the conductor and everyone who were involved in dipping their hands in the fruit boel of success for the band. i'm praying hard for my own brother's efforts. dun worry bro, watever the result is, u're still my bro. and yeah someday i'll get u to play drums for edition 3 and maybe who knows i'll move on to bass. or we get a bassist and i'd move on to support guitars... dreams again... but i shall not drift. all the best brother.
and in any case of emergency, whenever it may happen. do not always call the cops but just turn around and just embrace life for a little second.
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::jufFeNder | | 4/11/2005 12:13:00 AM |
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i had a great sunday... the police combo band's awesome. they played Here Without You by 3 doors down. so tt's awesome. anyone who goes alternative even though they're supposed to be conservative, is awesome.
and yeah... i just had a great sunday.... thanx for coming....
Sunday, April 10, 2005
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i want longer saturdays!!
::jufFeNder | | 4/10/2005 12:47:00 AM |
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alrighty.... saturday was great. HELLO sunday!! can't believe i'm looking forward for sunday. i wish everyday is saturday. u know it's just that time of the time when you can go haywire and still know that there'll still be a rest day tomorrow. but yeah saturdays dun last long do they?
played soccer with the inspectors just now. crazy bunch! after we actually headed back to our barracks. yes the place where we spent 9 months together back in PA. missed the times we had there.
ah yes... introducing the team. WILD PARROTS we call ourselves.....
when there's time to be serious, we're serious alright... and yeah here's the whacky times....
we settled for lunch at toa payoh after that. had ASP Dom to join us. nice to have you with us SIR! and yeah thanx for the extra piece of chicken too. and the drink... hahahaha... but yeah he rocks as well.
shermin and zhenfeng who were sitting in front of me and melvin.
alright.... enuff with the pics... in the evenin i went down to music class as per normal. tired already sia. and we're bassless for today as well. dun make a difference though. cos we're a trio. talked to jay bout setting up our own blog for the band. just for keepsake and feedbacks on music and life and 'Mr Flat' hahahaha.... we're still working on it though... will be up soon i hope.... and yeah i did the banner for the webpage as well... so u guys might wanna check it out when u have the time ya.
alrighty... tired already... time to knock off... esplanade awaits in the afternoon...
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
ok.... so i started reading again. and i fall back to the same old book i borrowed from kenji. angels and demons. pretty nice story. very rivetting.
anyway, this is like a good week so far.... nothing much to do. i get to walk around a little. and goHOME AT 6!!! yes! can u believe that? i went home at 6 for today and yesterday.... great... ok here comes the bad news... yes u guys know abt it... haven paid my road tax yet so i can't ride... yes i am that law abiding mind you.
pffftt... ok... i've got no new stories to tell... i'm counting down the days to ORD though... if fact... if i minus off all my leave and EDOs.... and add all the public holidays... i'll have ard 97 more working days to ORD.... stimulating isn't it? motivated? yes i am....
Sunday, April 03, 2005
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edition 3?
::jufFeNder | | 4/03/2005 04:31:00 PM |
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did this while i was bored today. anyway, while we were havin the music class, the 'lecturer' told us to think of a band name. haah... like revenge of the pigeons was bad enough! no lah... we're just jokin abt that. but personally, i can't stop coming up with edition 3... maybe it signifies something...
1) for jay and me.... this is like our 3rd band that we're playin together in.
2) there are currently 3 of us.... me, jan, jay
3) if the bassist joins us... then it'll be the third edition of us... like me, jan and jay are considered first edition, then the 3 of us plus our part time bassist goes to second edition... the real bassist comes... there u go third edition.
first addiction kinda represents music that brings us together in the first place. so yeah.... i dunno... comments?!
Saturday, April 02, 2005
today's dad's b'day.... happy b'day dad. may Allah bless u.
anyway, i've been bumming ard. it's like that time of the month where u're high and dry and everything is just one word... pointless. oh well, i've gone thru harder shit than this. ok.... so i renewed my rider's insurance today and that leaves me with a smack of $7 in my account. amazing huh. tt's only the rider's insurance. haven renew my road tax yet. so i can't ride my bike until i pay up... wic is most prolly on the 12th when i get my pay.
talking abt pay.... hmmmmmm.... i was kinda attracted to a phone while browsing the net the other day and yeah it's been like featured on tv and such. dunno if i should splurge once again. yes a bit materialistic aren't i? damn i sound bitchy. haah. i'll KIV that idea...
i've got music class today... dun really like the instructor though.... he's got so much comments that it takes 30 minutes out of the whole 1 hr lesson. and yeah 15 minutes after that, he'll ramble on his life.... when he was young that is. die sia... what jan said is correct... why can't we just use the jamming room and not attend the lesson. that sounds good right?
anyway, i'll just pack my drumsticks and yeah my scores and do what i usually do. just play the drums... then maybe during the jamming period i'll get hold of the strings...
Friday, April 01, 2005
i am this close to updating this blog.
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